This motherhood season of
Watching you from here.
You don’t need me
To pick you up
Prevent your falls
Protect you.
– Leastways not in the same ways.
This season brings
A new peace
(And a new tension).
When you were little
I hovered:
Conscious of so many potential dangers.
Ever present,
I could
Prevent your falls,
Soothe your fears,
Intercept your missteps.
Now I watch from afar –
As you capably, fearlessly
Climb
And dangle
And balance
And reach
And stretch.
I privately hold my breath
And silently root
For sure footedness
Instead of instructing you towards it.
There’s a little one here
All luscious and teetering
His daddy close behind.
I remember.
And I remember when I couldn’t wait to sit over here.
The waiting’s over
And it won’t be long now
‘Til I wish it was back…
The old dangers
Paling in light of the new.