Judgment

Oh, magical magical me

All full up and justified

As you stay over there all wrong.

Yes, this tongue in cheek sarcasm is yet another fault – or is it virtue in attempt at liberation?

Welcome back ever constant question of quality.

When attaching quality to reactions, responses, retreats, or attacks,

Not knowing much feels like knowing nothing,

And that cloud of unknowing threatens prit near full on suffocating.

Smothered by my own isolation

I know I’m hard to take,

So I let you off the hook but we both gasp for air in this dry, dirty, small, mean boat of wretchedness.

Oh, but Love: do win, do, and thank You that You can and do and will.

Release us from judgment’s mildewed, stinky hold and to the clearer, living waters we need.

I’m so sorry we miss, don’t reflect, don’t YOU. You in all Your glorious perfection: may we increasingly intersect, integrate, be better and more like You.

Perfect. Like You wondrously tell us to be too.

What an invitation! What a hope, what a thought, what a possibility!

“Isn’t it wonderful? How can it be true?”*

*Sara Groves song

New

  

 Even though I’ve not been here before

 Going through the motions

 As though I have.

 Where nary an original thought

 Feeding reaction

 S’to be found.

 Ideas

 Expectations

 Roles

 Ways of responding

 All seem irritatingly preconceived.

 Decided upon.

 Not deciding’s deciding too.

 I must decide to remind myself

 That I’ve not passed this way before.

 This is a new day

  A new thing 

 (Full of promise and opportunity)

 Why does this remembrance seem the exception, the extra?

 A pleasant surprise? A life-changing epiphany?

 Why does succumbing to lesser quality modes of responding seem to be the most common rule?

 Going through the motions will reign

 If I don’t fight for lusher, more vital grounds.

 Fight to remember this new day

 The thrill of new ways.

 Will I fight?

 Will I perceive it?

 Will I see the new thing

 And refuse to be swallowed 

 In the old?

 Be remade, live fully alive,

 In the new?