“Prayer should take up and turn towards the spiritual order all the powers of our mental, emotional, and volitional life. Prayers should be the highest exercise of these powers; for here they are directed to the only adequate object of thought, of love, and of desire. It should, as it were, lift us to the top of our condition, and represent the fullest flowering of our consciousness. For here we breathe the air of the supernatural order, and attain according to our measure that communion with Reality for which we were made.” Evelyn Underhill
Look at the empty, wealthy night
The pilgrim moon!
I am the appointed hour,
The “now” that cuts
Time like a blade.
I am the unexpected flash
Beyond “yes,” beyond “no,”
The forerunner of the Word of God.
Follow my ways and I will lead you
To golden-haired Suns,
Logos and music, blameless joys,
Innocent of questions
And beyond answers:
For I, Solitude, am thine own self:
I, Nothingness, am thy All.
I, Silence, am thy Amen!
Thomas Merton
Category: Poetry
Hope
Seems an awful precarious vessel
By which would flow
You, or any part of You.
Even my wonder at Your goodness is
Too unreliable, too simple.
Part of and maybe the magic is
You’re to be hoped in:
No matter our fragility
Lack of dependability
Whimpering, stinking inadequacy.
You and all Your
Tendrils of light keep
Warming:
Teasing to hope.
Blessedly Forced Reckoning
With so many words
This breeze
Ailments-forcing-downtime
A rocked-jacked-up-unexpected-turn-of-events
Forced inactivity
This fragility I’m tempted to begrudge
Turns out’s my greatest asset
As it makes room
For all His goodness
That I temporarily forgot
In all my (quite-temporary-and-posing-as) capability.
Oh, Lord,
How majestic is
– Not just Your Name –
But Your way
You
Light as a feather
Heavy as a mountain
More besides and all the in betweens
Wild
Sweet
Huge
Complete
Staggered, lonely, and full am I
With such a God as You
You Are
And Everywhere
Help us see YOU
Premeditated Posturing

Nothin’ like my wretched to bring out yours.
And you may mind me saying,
But there’s nothin’ like your wretched to bring out mine.
I know you’re not trying to NOT know me,
But you’re not trying TO either.
It’s hard to hug so much premeditated posturing,
And I’m sorry I walk away disappointed in you.
I don’t know why.
Your refusal to know me
Is just another reflection of my own ugliness.
This isn’t all there is.
Praise His Name –
This isn’t all there is.
Bear with me,
I’ll bear with you and
Shed this outgrown itchy skin
For a fresh one
That gleams and shines
‘Neath the light.
Inviting, welcoming,
Ready and new for receiving all you offer, it’s
Impermeable to stings and scratches.
Forgive my absorption of your ugliness:
– please disregard it –
As if I didn’t have my own to be rid of,
I’ve gone and lazily let yours ooze through.
Like so much poison all our transgressions
May mingle and choke out the healthy
If we’re not careful.
I know better.
A better way
An excellent way
A less garment-like way;
One that doesn’t have to be changed nor shed
One that is rooted in – Who is – love and righteousness.
Who never tires, nor offends, nor spoils.
Who extends love to a thousand generations.
Make us so, Lord.
Forgive these petty (though still dire) offenses,
Be our love and
Thank You for Yours.

I’d be a well meaning but destructive spectator in this wide world of perils:
Free the butterfly from his cocoon
The spider from his molt
Quicken the buffalo calf from the wolves’ pursuit
Make all the carnivores vegetarians.
I’d upset the natural order of things in favor of less:
Less effort, less running, less power
Thereby weakening all things and
Have the place overrun.
Instead of shrinking and fearing all these threats,
I pray to meet them as He’s directed:
Be strong and courageous
Not lettuce leaf wilt
‘Neath what would challenge.
Head up, shoulders back, forehead like flint
May I take hold of a freely offered inheritance as
Little conqueror.
Rally
“Lacking in nothing”
Oh, the wonder of this –
This puny puddle
Rallies a little
A slack everything
Perks up with the suggestion
And thrills
To think
It possible
Reclamation
The fullness and
Scope of this
Gulf Stream life
And I’m right saturated and
Even bogged down while moved along.
Regardless of my desire for calmer (stagnant?) waters
I’m the mom
For all practical purposes
But all I feel is to be
“Like butter spread over too much bread”*
*Bilbo Baggins
All these children’s questions
Charge the particles
In my like-an-old-school-tv’s
Snowy insides:
Instead of jolting to life,
Every word
Zaps already taut and sensitive fibers
And this tired old battery sparks only to grinding.
Proof again
That mere machinations
Aren’t the source of life and
Just-function won’t sustain any of us.
Without the proper mechanic’s lifeblood to
Recalibrate all these lifeless moving parts we’re all just
Bound for the junk heap.
Overdue
I wheel myself in for inspection:
Open the hood
Expose the innards
Wait for His assessment.
It took me way longer to get here than it takes for Him to look.
Surprisingly gentle, thorough, and quick
He fusses with something (I don’t see what) and
I expect the damage report – as ever –
To be that this time I’ve ridden too far, too long
Without this scrutiny, this help, this exposure.
Instead, He bids me turn the ignition and
– Expecting dead space –
A deep resonant purr sounds instead.
Instead of more static misfires and sparks
A healthy hum of life and connection fires full and throaty.
Smiling
I shake my head in wonder and thanks and
Roll forward back into the stream
Anticipating a new horizon and steady current to
Carry me along, the Master Mechanic’s prints? My map.
Thank You.
Relief
A new peace descends
It’ll probably be displaced by some scurrying, unexpected,
Terrible trouble
But –
For this moment
Trouble, lofty pursuits,
“Grander” things
(Than savoring a bit of quiet)
Seem a little trumped up
Falsely grand
(a little silly?).
I don’t mean to judge
It’s just that
This new peace that’s descended
Seems enough to accomplish most anything
– Seems like everything –
Without lots of trying
And I do hope that this basking
Will serve to extend it
If even a little further…
Thank You, Lord.
Psalm 34:10
James 1:4
Jesus Is
Jesus is kinda punk rock
No warning
Unpredictable
All freedom
‘Cept drive’s not gone awry:
No violence serving ignoble purposes
– He’s still hardcore –
Tumultuous and jarring as a mosh pit
He’s not all piety and whispers
But He is clean
Sometimes quiet
Reorienting
Jesus is kinda Baroque:
Orderly
Beautiful
Calming, invigorating
Jesus is kinda hippy:
Free, earthy
Not bound to norms
Colorful
Airy
Akin to blowin’ with the wind
Jesus is kinda conservative
Fitted too for suits
Intentional, shrewd, spot on, exacting, rigorous.
Calm, cool, collected
And still authentically authentic
As lion, lamb, dove, serpent.
No wonder all these appeal and
– Each but a strain of a more excellent way –
Speak to us
Trouble is, err too much on the side of one
And the others get forsaken.
Why not dig deep
Stretch a little and
Embrace smatterings of each
Unabashedly
All out
Orderly
Wild
Earthy
Carefully
Taste and see all the richness
Of the one in the many
Not make up a limited mind
Held in and unfinished
Towards one and only best way
But all in, eyes open, ready to see The Way
As it – as He – chooses to present
And so regard with love and awake to those
Who wear His other colors
And so
Regard
The Him in the them
Sugaring season
It’s that time again. And I love it.
Steam and fire, wind and sleet
This shack’s where in- and outside meet
Before this gift here’s at its finish will
Meet heat and coal to quite diminish
All from a boil that allows the clear
And cold run sap to disappear
Up through the air as tiny drops
Float up and up (to the treetops?)
Which leave behind the golden stick
That boils and boils from thin to thick
And ends up in my coffee, tea
(And fingers, quite in spite of me)
Oh for the sake of sweet so fine
I labor here to make it mine.
But before the sugar shack I have
To make my way ’round yard and back
Where buckets wait in mystery
With treasures held for me to see
I peek inside each one with great
Big hope as I anticipate
How much? How much? lies there within
That bucket; is it thick or thin
With sap, oh tree, are you ready to
Share what’s yours with me, are you?
Is it time? Is it now?
(I’m a child who’s waited all year through
For this present once again that’s new!)
Emptying time.
I grab the buckets, lift, unload
The metal’s cold, my muscles groan.
I set my face
Quicken my pace
Through mud, grass, leaves, and ice or snow
Forth and back through taps and trees
I wonder how the count will be
Will I run out of storage space
Or need to slow my boiling pace
For smaller yields and lesser gains?
No matter what, I’ll take these pains
For nectar sweet as honeybees’
Maple syrup time requires of me.
And when I start to tire or feel
The weight of work I do so real
I stop and breathe the crisp new breath
Of spring’s onset and winter’s death
The air is fresh the work is good:
This mix of fire, sap, steam, and wood
And all this bounty’s yielded up
In this li’l yard from nature’s cup
The gold brown gift on counter sits
For king or peasant present fit
A taste so good, pure, and unique
It needs no help, no aid, no tweak
But to watch the boil, this takes a bit
Of preference, here I do admit
To decide how much to load the fire
And when, how much, in order to
Each facet must be much thought through
Or not; sometimes I’ll let it be
And not take things so seriously
There’s oft a rhythm there’s oft some fun
(A time for each thing ‘neath the sun!)
To sit, to work, to watch, to try
And delight in time that passes by
The process by which it comes about
I just can’t say enough about
‘Cause I get to stand and watch and wait
And walk and load, elucidate
And wonder, move and load again
(And again and again and again and again.)
How many jobs are under heaven
Where work’s the dough and time’s the leaven
That allows for a product
From patience and grace
Quite without all attempts to quicken the pace?
I’m the watchman, the gatherer, the participant here



